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minxyIn my continuing highs and lows this semester, it does seem as though I only post during the lows, when no one on the West Coast is home from work yet, and I just cannot cope with whatever.
The irony is that this semester is so much better than last, when I didn't have the luxury of realizing how in over my head I was. This semester I just have this gut-deep muscle memory of how much energy it takes to move across the country. Only this time it'll be 4-fold, since I have to move my car myself (no easy flights for me while my furniture makes it's own way, nooooooooo) and I'll also be moving my sweetheart's house and wheels up too. Well, jointly, I'm not packing up his underwear for him or anything, he's a grown-up.
I am a little fed up with my continuing emotional dwelling on how much I don't want to house-hunt, pack, etc, though. Because really, that loses sight of the remarkable fact that E and I initiated a relationship right before I moved last time, and then survived a two year long-distance thing. There's not a doubt in my mind that we still know what we're doing well enough, but my goodness the faith it takes for him to pack up and follow me; I'm awed by his faith, actually. I hope I don't do anything to not deserve it, like settle into my dream job and thoughtlessly fail to realize how much it sucks for him to be looking for a job or something (only I can fend that off since I've named it.)
In comparison, the small stuff: my computer screen shorted out. But it was a work computer, so I'm currently on a loaner and they're fixing or replacing the other, all done with remarkably little administration on my part.
We've had a 24 hour blizzard followed by 3 days of moderate rain and above-freezing (during the day) temperatures. Blizzards and floods, that's my town right now. I've never seen the lake flood before, but we were in better shape than a lot of campus housing. Which leads me to the effects of Spring weather:
I still get migraines, but this semester my schedule is really badly out of whack with my massage therapist and chiro. Still, it's lighter outside and I have more motivation to work out and that's a pretty good coping mechanism too; I can keep my life in balance.
My mother is going weird on me. Best guess is that she's modeling her retired lifestyle after her mother's, who died a few years ago. That would be fine if Nana's choices hadn't driven my Mom nuts at the time; I don't feel like resenting my Mom for the next, oh, ever, so this is going to get discussed if it doesn't resolve. So far, though, the really strange part for me is her obsession with my hypothetical future wedding, and need to vilify my Sweetie's family in her head (she's never met them.) We've had words about the latter; we'll see if it takes or if stronger words are needed.
My research had a set-back. This blocked me for several weeks while I just taught and thought and regrouped. Now I've had a few days of Spring Break, I think I've got it all sorted (I do wish I had it sorted on my own computer, but we can't have everything.)
I am half-way through my last semester here before I take a tenure-track job that will let me live with E. I still like my freshmen and my coworkers and my researchers and my sweetheart. Life is good, self, let's try and keep a little perspective, hrm?
Coda: I am pleased with my first self-designed sock, and am thinking of posting the pattern during Three Weeks for Dreamwidth this year. If I do, anyone want to talk through pattern writing with me? I can make a .pdf easily enough, or post directly with photos, but aside from knitting errors, how much information is too much?
A look at the sock:
The irony is that this semester is so much better than last, when I didn't have the luxury of realizing how in over my head I was. This semester I just have this gut-deep muscle memory of how much energy it takes to move across the country. Only this time it'll be 4-fold, since I have to move my car myself (no easy flights for me while my furniture makes it's own way, nooooooooo) and I'll also be moving my sweetheart's house and wheels up too. Well, jointly, I'm not packing up his underwear for him or anything, he's a grown-up.
I am a little fed up with my continuing emotional dwelling on how much I don't want to house-hunt, pack, etc, though. Because really, that loses sight of the remarkable fact that E and I initiated a relationship right before I moved last time, and then survived a two year long-distance thing. There's not a doubt in my mind that we still know what we're doing well enough, but my goodness the faith it takes for him to pack up and follow me; I'm awed by his faith, actually. I hope I don't do anything to not deserve it, like settle into my dream job and thoughtlessly fail to realize how much it sucks for him to be looking for a job or something (only I can fend that off since I've named it.)
In comparison, the small stuff: my computer screen shorted out. But it was a work computer, so I'm currently on a loaner and they're fixing or replacing the other, all done with remarkably little administration on my part.
We've had a 24 hour blizzard followed by 3 days of moderate rain and above-freezing (during the day) temperatures. Blizzards and floods, that's my town right now. I've never seen the lake flood before, but we were in better shape than a lot of campus housing. Which leads me to the effects of Spring weather:
I still get migraines, but this semester my schedule is really badly out of whack with my massage therapist and chiro. Still, it's lighter outside and I have more motivation to work out and that's a pretty good coping mechanism too; I can keep my life in balance.
My mother is going weird on me. Best guess is that she's modeling her retired lifestyle after her mother's, who died a few years ago. That would be fine if Nana's choices hadn't driven my Mom nuts at the time; I don't feel like resenting my Mom for the next, oh, ever, so this is going to get discussed if it doesn't resolve. So far, though, the really strange part for me is her obsession with my hypothetical future wedding, and need to vilify my Sweetie's family in her head (she's never met them.) We've had words about the latter; we'll see if it takes or if stronger words are needed.
My research had a set-back. This blocked me for several weeks while I just taught and thought and regrouped. Now I've had a few days of Spring Break, I think I've got it all sorted (I do wish I had it sorted on my own computer, but we can't have everything.)
I am half-way through my last semester here before I take a tenure-track job that will let me live with E. I still like my freshmen and my coworkers and my researchers and my sweetheart. Life is good, self, let's try and keep a little perspective, hrm?
Coda: I am pleased with my first self-designed sock, and am thinking of posting the pattern during Three Weeks for Dreamwidth this year. If I do, anyone want to talk through pattern writing with me? I can make a .pdf easily enough, or post directly with photos, but aside from knitting errors, how much information is too much?
A look at the sock:
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Date: 2011-03-17 09:45 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-18 01:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-18 02:30 am (UTC)When is 3 weeks for Dreamwidth? I feel like a horrible volunteer for not knowing, BUT I would love to see your pattern so now I really need to put it on my calendar.
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Date: 2011-03-18 02:33 am (UTC)It begins 25 April, and that gives me a little time to write the pattern and then test-knit it for myself.
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Date: 2011-03-17 11:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-18 01:02 am (UTC)Road Trip!
Date: 2011-03-18 07:54 pm (UTC)Re: Road Trip!
Date: 2011-03-19 02:53 am (UTC)...that said, I've made the trip several times before, and there are only so many ways to do it efficiently if one is short on time. That said, I am looking forward to seeing the Bad Lands again, and I wouldn't refuse a stop in Yellowstone either. And I shall see my Grandpa. But it will be tiring.
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Date: 2011-03-23 01:00 am (UTC)That sock is insanely gorgeous. The entrelac looks supremely comfy, like little bubble-pockets for your feet. Its the Air Jordan of handknit socks.
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Date: 2011-03-23 02:42 am (UTC)The sock is really surprising! Like, you knit a tiiiiiny toe, because the entrelac effectively doubles the stitch count. I'm still deciding whether the heel is too shallow as a result, but I don't want to have just a stripe of entrelac on the top, I want the top of the foot *covered*, you know? And yes, very comfy! But also really, really warm. Instantly warm on your feet. The little bubbles are mini-hot water bottles, I just know it.
Entrelac Sock
Date: 2012-03-24 10:24 pm (UTC)Re: Entrelac Sock
Date: 2012-03-26 10:01 pm (UTC)and on Ravelry here.
I get a lot of joy out of seeing photos of socks people have made. I hope you'll show us anything you cast on!