Break me, please.

[minxy]

Spent the weekend with not only great friends and lovely people, but also the lovely parents of some of my best friends from waaaay back; I forgot that one of the perks of being back in my home city is that my friends show up periodically, no fanfare, no fuss, just here.

One of my favorite people ever celebrated her 30th birthday Saturday night, surrounded by an eclectic mix of fascinating folk, and let me tell you, that's the way to leave a decade in the dust.

Only all the sympathy for being jerked around by my committee in politics and power plays and neglect has opened the floodgates, as it were, and I've transitioned from my 'grin and bear it, no one would believe it anyway' attitude to a 'why does this have to be happening? these people like me and are nice to me and I respect them waaaay more.'

I'm not sure that's a good thing, but there you are. I know for a fact that my most neglectful and problematic member of the committee will be in this city on Thursday and possibly Friday, and although he will not acknowledge my request to have a little of his time, I know where I can find him and at some point I will corner him.

Why yes, it is a supremely wasteful use of my time, but there you are.

My mom gave me the 'mean people are intimidated by you' pep talk and an incredibly soft hand-me-down bathrobe. Am wrapped head to toe in warm, screaming pink fleece. It feels appropriate.

My friend with a birthday asked what she could do to help, so I asked her to tell me stories. If anyone else feels like it? Stories would be lovely. As of this moment, I'm in the mood to be broken, just shattered. If you want a prompt for that? You could use the phrase 'Not who I expected you to be' as a starting point. If you don't feel like going that direction? Tomorrow I'll probably feel like something else. Anything escapist.

Things I've found on my own:

Rachel Sabotini's (wickedwords') Corridor Life, Jack/Daniel, S7 or 8, R rated, lovely.

A short comment fic from leadensky (who does Not Write SG-1), Operation Beach and Burgers, SG-1, S9, gen, G.

danvers has been at request fic, and I keep thinking of the Sam one, in which Jack and Daniel go native and Sam has to turn her back. Heh. I love Sam sometimes, because that is EXACTLY how it would go down. Also love sdraevn, obviously, for writing it, and responding to comments even though my f/b at the moment is more along the lines of 'hey, I liked this' than deep insight and meaningful commenting.

More from cesperanza's archives: Things To Do In Denver When You're Dead, John and Rodney on Earth, between seasons, with complex psychology and deep connection, very sexy. NC-17, SGA.

ltlj (AKA Martha Wilson) finished posting Recovery (link to first post), the sequel to the SG-1/SGA crossover Retrograde. Both are brilliant, the characters from both shows are amazing and the stories are incredible. Not to be missed. Also just posted today: comfort fic addendum. Movie night (gen, PG-13, mostly SGA). Really excellent community interaction.

siriaeve wrote Sfumato (without lines or borders, in the manner of smoke or beyond the focus plane) for trinityofone's birthday. Beautiful John & Rodney travelling and living after others didn't. Rodney's inability to name his realizations as they come was amazing. Fade to black slash, rate it a PG-13? SGA.

ETA: nandamai just made me laugh with this lovely OT3 piece: A.D.E.A.

Found another 700 words for Teal'c, but am still working up to finding the zing of the piece. I think it may be in an epilogue, one that is a bit of a sudden departure from the tone of the piece, but really the way to emotionally gut the thing. It's wierd how ripping yourself up creatively seems like such a good idea sometimes. Or maybe I'm just in the mood for abortive, half-arsed catharsis for my characters; which is a shame, really, as that was Not My Prompt. Oh well! Makes for better story, usually, and a much pornier rating.

Comments

[demilo19.livejournal.com]

I know for a fact that my most neglectful and problematic member of the committee will be in this city on Thursday and possibly Friday, and although he will not acknowledge my request to have a little of his time, I know where I can find him and at some point I will corner him.

I really think that grad committees (or any committee) is just a legit hazing ritual. They are just testing to see how much you care. The more you stalk, the more you care, and the more you care, the better their responses!

Of course, I just finished my final project and am in the whole "not my problem - I turned it in" mindset. I will probably become more combative (and isn't that a sad way to view it) when it is closer to graduation.

[rydra_wong]

I think it may be in an epilogue, one that is a bit of a sudden departure from the tone of the piece, but really the way to emotionally gut the thing.

Oooh. Sounds interesting.

*waits in suspense*

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

I think I like the 'legit hazing ritual' idea, since I'm having trouble with the idea that none of these people are inherently evil (I chased the evil one away, apparently, though she left slinging curses), but the behavior is baffling.

I remember the 'not my problem' bit, but then it took for ev ar for my advisor to get back to me with revisions and I realized I couldn't wash my hands of finished drafts.

I hate badgering people. I don't like who they are making me be.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

Well, you'll be the first to see it. Will write during breaks today, I think.

[becky-monster.livejournal.com]

Must give love for the icon.

Told you that Doctor Who will get you;) The new series started on Saturday and it is gooooood!;)

Being someone who does not *do* confrontation (see latest lj entry), I can't offer much in the way of helpful advice. All I can proffer is good vibes that it all turns out for the best with the minimum of hassle and stress.

As for finding the 'zing' in a peice for a ficathon - it will come, but whether it will make it in time for the deadline... one can only hope! It never does with me, which is a cryin' shame.
But you're a better writer than me, so perhaps you can find it way easier than me...

[troyswann.livejournal.com]

deep sympathies re the committee. It's not like the mental exhaustion and braintwistiness and so on are enough but you have to be kicked around like a softening soccerball too?

You will pass with flying colours and laugh last, my friend. You really will. And that'll show 'em.

I would love to write you something. My brain is currently idling due to sleep-dep, but if I'm up at all hours again, I'll see what happend. Lord knows it'll probably fit the "escapist" bill, since I'm sure I'll be hallucinating by then.

*hugs*

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

also...mean people suck. and not in a good way. i hope that those folks treat you well and stop being mean.

sending you good writing thoughts and *hugs*.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

Ach, my boss doesn't do confrontation either, that's part of the problem, I think. But really, I think there's no rushing this if I want to get out with all the bridges intact.

I think the ficathon is coming nicely. Amazingly. I'm not a better writer, though, seriously. I am a very slow writer, where you, crazy woman, have multiple joyous things in beta; I enjoy the deadlines of ficathons (sometimes) for that reason: speeds me up.

I don't know if I can deal with new doctors, though. I really adore Christopher Eccelston, how can I give my heart to another? I ask you?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

You will pass with flying colours and laugh last, my friend. You really will. And that'll show 'em.

*watery grin* Big picture, eh? *deep breath*

It does help.

I bet your hallucinations would be beautiful, but don't sacrifice sleep on my account, as I'm pretty sure the medical part of my brain would short circuit if I was the cause of someone feeling lousy-er. Um. You know what I mean. Take care of your body.

*hugs*

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

I think they worked, those good writing thoughts. 'Preciate it.

*hugs*

(dude, mean people do suck. What did I do to earn power politics, eh? I'm a nice apolitical girl.)

*flashes Daniel icon*

[cofax7]

I don't have a thing for you (unless you really want to learn about operations and maintenace in flood control districts in California), but I do have a head's-up that minnow1212 has a splendiferous SGA 5 Things story in beta. Which I think you'll like a lot, even if it's not McKay/Sheppard.

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

hee! it's always nice to see a flashing daniel. ;)

i used to get these two bumper stickers at dead shows: "shut up and dance" and.... "mean people suck". they were the gooood bumper stickers. *poignant sigh*

i think it's impossible to avoid the politics because the people that function that way impose it on *everyone*. meep.

and yay that you're writing more. *g*

[troyswann.livejournal.com]

It's stupid, but your very angsty snippet called A Snippet Called A Very Angsty Snippet For Minxy in which somebody gets something (http://troyswann.livejournal.com/378707.html) is in my journal.

I apologize. Sincerely.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

I love you so. much. Words fail me, that is how much.

This calls for martinis. Cheers!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

I am so not picky about pairings that I would go so far as to say I am an anti-otp person, if that didn't sound so much like Star Trek's anti-matter, and I don't want to imply that you can run a starship on me, but minnow fic is very happy-making. I shall look forward to that very much.

I'll let you keep flood control district stuffs for yourself, but I am happy somebody's thinking about it, especially since it's looking like I'll make it to New Orleans to build houses during my time off after the dissertation.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

The good thing about ficathons is that they make me write, even when I'm feeling contrary. The bad thing is that I can't show people as soon as it's done, I have to wait for the deadline.

It's a flexible one with Teal'c, though. Moonshayde opened the reveal to a week, so that people could post in time for the fic to be nominated at the Stargate Fan Awards if they're good.

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

it's a conundrum. and i have to admit the idea of writing for a ficathon causes me to hyperventilate. *meep*

i'm looking forward to reading the story...and you'll post a link i hope? :)

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

Like I have shame about boosting my own writing. Actually I think I get to post it here and link back from the community.

*hands you a paper bag*

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

i hope you don't have any shame at all. :)

:::examines paper bag thoughtfully and stores for the next time i post a story:::

*bg*

[http://users.livejournal.com/_minxy_/]

You know I'm thinking of not signing up for the Jack/Daniel ficathon but just trying very hard to write some Jack and Daniel in the meantime? Sort of be the opening act? Or the half-time show? That way, no deadlines overlapping nastily with possible rl deadlines and there's still loooooove.

Wanna join me in entertaining the masses while everyone else writes for the ficathon?

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

heh heh heh...i giggled like a fiend when i read this during lunch today. sadly...my new story is still prenatal....just a few paragraphs and images and i've a feeling it's going to take me a few months to get it to the point where it's even ready for beta. after that rush of ideas on friday my brain is quiet again. well...as quiet as it ever gets. but thank you *smooches you* for the offer/invite. i promise i'll let you know if it looks like something' coming to my mind sooner.

and yay for you writing some jack and daniel just for fun with no deadlines and lots of love. *hugs*