I didn't expect it to happen so soon. You seem to be holding on well on the outside. I'm hoping the inside is well, too.
I'm still wondering if it's better when it's a process and not an event. I just realized that when I sometimes think about death of my loved ones - what would I do, where would I go, alone with a baby in a foreign country - I always think of an event. My husband, my brother, my parents, even. Not once have I thought about a slow process of fading. Like with birth, where you prepare for nine months, and you slowly become a mother whether you want it or not. It's good. Should I hope for the future events to be like the one you experienced? Do you have experience in both? Which one is easier?
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Date: 2008-05-19 01:47 am (UTC)I didn't expect it to happen so soon. You seem to be holding on well on the outside. I'm hoping the inside is well, too.
I'm still wondering if it's better when it's a process and not an event. I just realized that when I sometimes think about death of my loved ones - what would I do, where would I go, alone with a baby in a foreign country - I always think of an event. My husband, my brother, my parents, even. Not once have I thought about a slow process of fading. Like with birth, where you prepare for nine months, and you slowly become a mother whether you want it or not. It's good. Should I hope for the future events to be like the one you experienced? Do you have experience in both? Which one is easier?